It seems like I have been looking forward to being a parent for a long time, and as I grew older I thought it wouldn't likely happen because I was a lesbian woman, which made it more expensive for us to consider and not to mention all the social implications you have to deal with as part of a marginalized group.  I also worried that I was too dedicated to my work, my travels, and my family (including my sisters, niece, and Dad) to even have time for raising a child who, in my opinion, requires a parents' focused attention. Two years ago, we had decided that it was best to not move forward with the IVF plan because the pros just didn't outweigh the cons, especially when we considered finances and our demanding jobs. Now I realize that it was all about having faith and understanding what it means when God says that He will provide.  When I went through my transformational born-again experience about a year ago during this time, my heart and perspective were enlightened and I shared with my wife that I thought having a child was part of God's plan for us, and here we are, with our beautiful baby boy blessing, J.J. in the midst of the COVID-19 Pandemic.